It is a rare treasure these days when I find the time to sit down and write. I miss the nights I had energy enough to stay up and scribble in my journal or let my fingers dance across the keyboard. I miss the daily journal I used to keep. I miss letting my fingers type each and every word that comes to my mind.
There is so much to write about and so much to capture I am sometimes afraid my mind will never be able to remember it all. So I snap pictures right and left, scribble notes here and there hoping that someday it will end up in a scrapbook or a letter. Maybe a magazine or the newspaper!
Words are like snowflakes, writing like a blanket of snow. The words pile on top of each other and tumble over creating glistening, crisp landscape. A beautiful story, a compelling speech, a heartfelt letter, a heartbreaking song. For some a masterpiece to be displayed and others a bundle of notebooks and papers shoved into a long forgotten box.
If a picture is worth a thousand words, how much then must a word be worth? A thousand sunsets, a million rain drops, one hundred smiles...
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
Within one day fall has come and gone. Though it's only October, we have already had our first snow here on the plains of Nebraska. It melted as soon as it hit the cement but collected on everything else.
Despite the winter conditions we still kept with our fall tradition and traipsed down to the apple orchards in Nebraska City. I can't say the weather was perfect but the day was. Not matter what somethings, like traditions, never change. It is something you can hold on to and cherish. And though things have changed in ways, the excitement of entering the fall season, picking apples, drinking cider and having fun together still remains. There were times several years back when I would dread a whole day together as a family and now I look forward to them, hope for them and count on them.
I look forward to sharing these moments, days and traditions with Teagan that were made when I was younger. Apples, and cider are only a small part of what these memories bring to me. I never realized how important family traditions were until I had a little one of my own.
Despite the winter conditions we still kept with our fall tradition and traipsed down to the apple orchards in Nebraska City. I can't say the weather was perfect but the day was. Not matter what somethings, like traditions, never change. It is something you can hold on to and cherish. And though things have changed in ways, the excitement of entering the fall season, picking apples, drinking cider and having fun together still remains. There were times several years back when I would dread a whole day together as a family and now I look forward to them, hope for them and count on them.
I look forward to sharing these moments, days and traditions with Teagan that were made when I was younger. Apples, and cider are only a small part of what these memories bring to me. I never realized how important family traditions were until I had a little one of my own.
Apartment Sweet Apartment
Nothing is quite as exciting to me as change. The most recent big change came a couple weeks ago when Teagan and I moved to our first apartment. Two bedroom, kitchen living room...really it's the perfect size for us and the right price too!
It has been allot of fun decorating Teagan's bedroom and pulling things together throughout the house, apartment, as well. I hate to call it an apartment because it really feels like our home.
Of course it's not always downhill. Laundry for example. I went to the laundry mat for the first time Sunday and what a crazy fiasco! I didn't want to by soap so I split a small travel size pack between three large loads, forgot dryer sheets, and didn't want to pay for extra drying time. Result: cold, damp clothes that are wrinkled and still sitting in their laundry baskets at home!
There are a few little and big adjustments to make still. I definitely miss the busyness of "Grandma's House." It is very quiet and still at our place:)
Mostly I love it and I look forward to the many memories Teagan and I will make there!
It has been allot of fun decorating Teagan's bedroom and pulling things together throughout the house, apartment, as well. I hate to call it an apartment because it really feels like our home.
Of course it's not always downhill. Laundry for example. I went to the laundry mat for the first time Sunday and what a crazy fiasco! I didn't want to by soap so I split a small travel size pack between three large loads, forgot dryer sheets, and didn't want to pay for extra drying time. Result: cold, damp clothes that are wrinkled and still sitting in their laundry baskets at home!
There are a few little and big adjustments to make still. I definitely miss the busyness of "Grandma's House." It is very quiet and still at our place:)
Mostly I love it and I look forward to the many memories Teagan and I will make there!
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Eighty Miles an Hour
Six months it's been. It seems like I measure how much time has passed all according to the day Teagan was born. Sometimes I feel I am running the mommy track a bit too often.
I couldn't imagine my life any other way. I am loving it. The thing is I just don't want to lose who I am in the title of "mom." I want being Teagan's mom to contribute to who I am but not consume me and sometimes I feel consumed.
I think it's the amount of freedom that gets lost. The growing up. Being a mom was a decision I made, one I will never regret but sometimes I wish I were able to be a kid again. To go a little crazy. To not care. To drive eighty miles an hour with windows down and music blaring...
I couldn't imagine my life any other way. I am loving it. The thing is I just don't want to lose who I am in the title of "mom." I want being Teagan's mom to contribute to who I am but not consume me and sometimes I feel consumed.
I think it's the amount of freedom that gets lost. The growing up. Being a mom was a decision I made, one I will never regret but sometimes I wish I were able to be a kid again. To go a little crazy. To not care. To drive eighty miles an hour with windows down and music blaring...
Welcoming Summer
I love this time of year. The hot days and cool nights. Grilling in the backyard, sitting by the fire, hanging out, catching a tan and welcoming summer.
I distinctly remember these days as a kid. Having to go to bed before the sun was out. Listening to the neighbors drive their motorcycles up and down the alley. Always feeling like I was missing the best part of the day. Finally dosing off as I felt the cool breeze drift through the room.
I have always loved this time of year and this year is no exception.
I distinctly remember these days as a kid. Having to go to bed before the sun was out. Listening to the neighbors drive their motorcycles up and down the alley. Always feeling like I was missing the best part of the day. Finally dosing off as I felt the cool breeze drift through the room.
I have always loved this time of year and this year is no exception.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Time of your Life
How long has it been? Too long. Not much has changed but some has. Teagan is coming along quite well and I am doing my best keeping up with things.
Work has been a challenge lately. I love my job but it sometimes seem that for all the hours I am putting in, I am barley paying my bills. Baby's dad is helping out some and I have caught a ton of breaks from others so I'm not complaining, but like I said it is sometimes a challenge.
In fact, life often comes a cross as one big challenge. I have a thing for challenges. I love them! Or to clarify, I love to conquer them!
I have some high hopes for this year. Goals I like to say. I don't necessarily want to start back to school but with only five classes left at Metro, it's a challenge I am bent on getting through. I would like to get into an apartment this fall, so saving up is another summer challenge. The goal here is to pay off my car, and find a place by Teagan's first birthday.
Being a mom is another challenge with a goal set to be not only a decent mom but a good mom. Not just to provide for him things but opportunities, lessons and yes even challenges as he grows up. For now though I am just trying to spend as much time as I can with him and am enjoying him as a baby!
Plans falter, I know. I may miss my goals by miles even though the aim looked good. Things once perceived as challenges may too soon fall under the title of trials.
It takes four times around the same track to run a mile. I have come to realize that the same is true in life. We sometimes have to run the same road many times just to accomplish one thing. I have to remind myself that every road leads us somewhere and every challenge meets a goal. And in the end we are right where we're supposed to be.
Presently I am right here. Sitting at my computer, baby in arms, marveling over the fact that it was one year and two days ago that I found out about my little Teagan. I look back in amazement too because for all the shit that happened last year, I will always remember 2008 not only as a challenge but also as the beginning of the best years of my life. "...make the best of this test and don't ask why, it's not a question but a answer learned in time...it's something unpredictable but in the end it's right" ...I hope you have the time of your life.
Work has been a challenge lately. I love my job but it sometimes seem that for all the hours I am putting in, I am barley paying my bills. Baby's dad is helping out some and I have caught a ton of breaks from others so I'm not complaining, but like I said it is sometimes a challenge.
In fact, life often comes a cross as one big challenge. I have a thing for challenges. I love them! Or to clarify, I love to conquer them!
I have some high hopes for this year. Goals I like to say. I don't necessarily want to start back to school but with only five classes left at Metro, it's a challenge I am bent on getting through. I would like to get into an apartment this fall, so saving up is another summer challenge. The goal here is to pay off my car, and find a place by Teagan's first birthday.
Being a mom is another challenge with a goal set to be not only a decent mom but a good mom. Not just to provide for him things but opportunities, lessons and yes even challenges as he grows up. For now though I am just trying to spend as much time as I can with him and am enjoying him as a baby!
Plans falter, I know. I may miss my goals by miles even though the aim looked good. Things once perceived as challenges may too soon fall under the title of trials.
It takes four times around the same track to run a mile. I have come to realize that the same is true in life. We sometimes have to run the same road many times just to accomplish one thing. I have to remind myself that every road leads us somewhere and every challenge meets a goal. And in the end we are right where we're supposed to be.
Presently I am right here. Sitting at my computer, baby in arms, marveling over the fact that it was one year and two days ago that I found out about my little Teagan. I look back in amazement too because for all the shit that happened last year, I will always remember 2008 not only as a challenge but also as the beginning of the best years of my life. "...make the best of this test and don't ask why, it's not a question but a answer learned in time...it's something unpredictable but in the end it's right" ...I hope you have the time of your life.
As Beautiful as the Day
Last Saturday was a wonderful day. I was running around frantically doing a few errands before work. Trying to get everything done so I could take Teagan back home and head off to work. I was only going in for three hours. So I called in. First time ever. I justified it in many ways.
First, they were hours I picked up and several times I have come in for others when they called in. Second, rarely do Teagan and I get a whole day to ourselves. Third, it was a beautiful day and I simply couldn't pass it up.
We didn't do anything too exciting. I finished my errands, did a little extra shopping and took Teagan to visit his Great-grandpa and grandma. We even went for a walk outside and then to Old Navy to buy my little guy some clothes for spring (how he grows!). It was great, as beautiful as the day.
To top it all off, the girls-Maggie, mom and I- got Coke Icees and rented a movie. Just one of those days you look back on and smile. I know each paragraph should have a minimum of three sentences so I will concur again, It was a wonderful day.
First, they were hours I picked up and several times I have come in for others when they called in. Second, rarely do Teagan and I get a whole day to ourselves. Third, it was a beautiful day and I simply couldn't pass it up.
We didn't do anything too exciting. I finished my errands, did a little extra shopping and took Teagan to visit his Great-grandpa and grandma. We even went for a walk outside and then to Old Navy to buy my little guy some clothes for spring (how he grows!). It was great, as beautiful as the day.
To top it all off, the girls-Maggie, mom and I- got Coke Icees and rented a movie. Just one of those days you look back on and smile. I know each paragraph should have a minimum of three sentences so I will concur again, It was a wonderful day.
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