Perfect

It has been nearly a year since it all began and Teagan is already almost three months old! Time sure does fly. I suppose you could say I have adjusted somewhat to being a mom. The mom title still throws me for a loop but I do love my son. More than anything in the world. He is so precious and while being a single mom was never what I wanted for myself, there still isn't anything I would do differently if given the opportunity.
Sometimes people ask me about being a mom and they say, "It was worth it though, wasn't it?" I always have to pause before answering as a wave of regretfully emotions echos through my mind until I remember Teagan and how much I love him. And I always answer "Yes, it is."
I have my moments. Times where I just have to break down and cry. It's hard and the beauty of caring for a little life doesn't always make things easier. Sometimes I feel alone. I wish for someone who would take care of me and my son and love us both. But in the end things couldn't be better right now. I know how blessed I am, not only by my little boy but also by my family. My mom has never ceased taking care of me and has now added another to the list. She watches Teagan while I'm at work for next to nothing, not to mention makes me dinner when I work late and lets me live at home-no rent. The rest of the family showers Teagan with love. Kisses, hugs and comforts him when he cries and does a million other things for us as well.
So sometimes, when I'm down and out so to speak or just plain bummed. I remind myself how well off I am and even though its tough and things didn't turn out quite as I wanted, I remember that everything is just how it should be. All mistakes and regrets aside, it's perfect.

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This is a blog about me. It's about my son Teagan and the new road he has taken me down. It's about life, the ups and downs, the twists and turns. It's about forgetting the past, accepting the present and looking forward to the future. It's a glimpse of change.